August Rush

Since this is my favorite color I have decided to use it to right about my august rush. Yes, it's already August. I'm at a happy place in my life but they are a few pieces of my puzzle that still need to be snapped into place. I'm still living with a friend of mine. I'm so grateful that she is letting me stay with her but I'm sick of her day to day BS! She's always sad, grumpy or acting vulnerable and frankly, I'm sick of it! I'm nice to her all the time and try to stay out of her hair as much as possible but she continues to act like I'm supposed to solve all her problems. Yes I'm her friend and yes I love her like a sister but it gets tedious trying to be there for her and play that part especially because she's mad EVERY SINGLE DAY. It's okay to be upset every now and then and occasionally cry but NOT every day. And the odd part is I don't know what she has to be unhappy about. She has money and like 3 jobs, she has her own place and her family is capable of helping her out with her finances when she comes up short. And she has had the best of the best internships and plenty of connections. I'm sooo confused! All she does in complain about this stupid boy over and over! I understand what he did to her because some guys are dicks but she needs to be over him by now! Move on!! There are more fish in the sea...Really! That's why I have no sympathy for her when she cries about him now because she put herself in this position. She keeps trying to contact him and find a way to get back with him. Just give it up because he is NOT worth it and she's a great girl! I've tried to help but I just don't want to hurt her feelings anymore than their already hurt so I just say nothing. And that's hard for me to do! lol Other than that I owe one of my friends some money for these concert tickets she bought and she's flippin' out even though I told her I'm trying to get back on my feet! She does not care! She thinks she did me a favor by buying me a ticket but to be honest, I could care less whether I went or not! I thought I was doing her a favor because she called and asked me to come with her. I'm sorry but concerts really aren't my thing! I thought I would give them a chance though so I went with her. I told her I would get her the money as soon as I could, and I am a person who keeps my word! She's totally not bein understanding but fortunately I have found a way to pay her back. Work is great!! I love Coach and Bebe Sport still. I'm working hard and definitely seeing results. Right now I'm working on securing an internship and getting some modeling jobs lined up! And those two things seem to be going good so far. My boyfriend is great! I have been staying with him most of the time to try to stay outta my friend's hair. He doesn't mind and we are having a great time spending time together! He's still my best friend and confident and I learn more and more about him each day. He is the only person I can truly count on besides several of my family members. I know he's always there and will stick with me through thick and thin! And believe me...times get THICK! Lol and God and our wonderful church has kept our heads on straight! My back is feeling better and I got over my little cold...My mom got a new job at a furniture store in Chicago so I'm happy for her. She loves it and I hope it puts her in theplace she needs to be! And Alex is super excited to go to Univ. of Indy so yay!!! Anyway I have to work at 5 to close at Bebe Sport today so hopefully I sell a lot!

June has come so soon!

Wow! It seems like I try to blog frequently and it never works. Probably because I'm constantly working which is not a bad thing at all. There is a lot of new stuff going on in my life. I now work at Bebe Sport and the Coach Store on Michigan Avenue. I love both of my jobs! I'm in the process of saving up for the new Macbook Pro and paying some past due bills. I want to get my financial situation in control because when I do, my life will be a lot easier! My little brother graduated from high school and will be attending the University of Indianapolis in the fall. There he will walk on to the basketball team and be eligible for a sports scholarship next year! Yay I'm so proud of him. My only hope and prayer is that he will make good decisions, get good grades and stop being lazy. If he does all of those things he will do great things in college and when he's plucked out into the real world. This summer he's working as a student painter painting many houses in Munster. Good for him! It's about time because this is basically his first job and I've been working since I was 16. My boyfriend was and still is the light of my life. He just graduated from Northwestern University and will be playing football in the United Football League (UFL) in San Francisco! I am sooo proud of my boo! Besides that we have been spending a lot of time together. It's just great to have a best friend who is your boyfriend whom you can count on at all times. I love him soooo much!! We have found a church that we both love called New Life Covenant and it is non-denominational. I'm so happy that we have the opportunity to worship together. Finding a church we both agree upon has been great especially since I was slightly worried about what church we were gonna go to with me being Baptist and him being Catholic. But everything has worked out the way God intended it to. Prince is leaving in September and I'm going to be so sad to see him go. It's a bittersweet feeling because I want him to reach his goals but I don't want him to leave me here alone to face my final year of college. It's kinda scary oddly enough because I've had him every year of college to be there for me. Now he will have to be there for me from a distance for about 3 months. I wish him much success anad I pray that we will continue to grow together and love eachother more each day! He is definitely the one. I know that for sure and without a doubt in my mind. As for me I am soo happy! On June 27th I was in my first professional fashion show at the W Hotel on Lake Shore Drive. It was an amazing experience!! I got to get my hair and make-up professionally done by Mario Tricoci, ride in a limo with a beautiful white robe covering my first lingerie piece, and be introduced to more modeling opportunities that I can take advantage of! The crowd loved us!! My support system was there including my boo, my mom, Ebony and other friends and family. Afterwards we got bottle service at this club called Stone Lotus to celebrate my show and Prince being drafted courtesy of Prince's agent. I ended the night sleeping next to the one I love : ) Speaking of Ebony, she has been a great friend. I am staying at her apartment with her over the summer rent free. Because she understand that life can be hard sometimes, she has been there for me. I have been there for her as well. It is so cool living with her because we get along well and both of us are very giving people. I will never forget her because of the kindness she has showed me. So about my summer, I have done some fun things! I have gone out, been in a couple fashion shows, worked, been to the beach a couple times and spent time with my family and I know there is more fun to come! So stay tuned for more episodes of my life....

March Madness

I just created my blog and am thrilled to be writing down my thoughts again. I figured this would be a helpful outlet for me as well as I good way to record my thoughts and feelings in an effort to become a better and stronger me. This month of March has been filled with excitement and I know there is more to come. I have no regrets and I'm extremely pleased with my life at this point. I feel like I'm doing what I need to do to make my dreams become reality and I'm starting to realize what is important. I'm a lot smarter than I used to be and more motivated. My 21st birthday just passed on March 20th! It was so fun. I spent time with those who are most dear to me that lived nearby including friends, family, and my boyfriend. I went out to dinner, clubbing, and attended my little brother's semi-state basketball game. It was a worthwhile weekend. I've been working out because I'm trying to get a six pack or at least get my tummy back to where it used to be. I've been going to XSport with my friend Jill as a guest, but as soon as I'm employed again I will get my own membership. I auditioned for the 3rd season of ANTM..the first time they were looking for girls who are 5'7 and under. I felt great going in! I sized up the competition and still felt very confident. I made it the the second round and then I was cut. I never cry because I know that I will establish my place in the modeling industry when my time comes. I love to model and I'm starting to think that I have a passion for it but I need to keep leraning more about myself in order to finalize the discovery of this so called "passion." That's what I'm working on right now. I can say that I was hurt because each time I audtion, I think it will be my big break and then I'm crushed when I get sent home with my number still attached to my shirt! Better luck next time, huh? No because it's not about luck, it's about God's will and ANTM must not be what he has intended for me right now. I trust him so I'm not mad. I have a job interview at Bebe tomorrow! It's a group interview so I really hope I can stand out in the crowd. I asked my mom how one goes about standing out in that kind of situation and she gave me some good advice so I'm anticipating this interview and praying that I get the job! Today has been a pretty productive day. I'm planning on taking some modeling job offers and going to a few open calls at agencies. I have time so I might as well use it wisely! I also inquired about some internships that I want to apply for so I'll be working on those this week. My boyfriend has been amazing! He's been hanging out a lot with my family and I, giving my brother college advice and spending loads of time with me. I really take as a sign of his maturity and relaization of what and who is important. I'm so proud of him! He really helps me out and is always there for me when I need him and even when I don't. He's my backbone and I'm glad that God put him in my life...I know this is cliche but I truly can't see my life without him. He is my best friend and I've realized it more and more as I watch episodes of The Game, one of my new favorite shows! It is a perfect representation of the life of a football player and his girlfriend/wife. And that's me and PK. The show teaches me things in a way eve though that sounds weird. Well I'm going to get back to watching old episodes so I can catch up on the show...Tootles!