March Madness

I just created my blog and am thrilled to be writing down my thoughts again. I figured this would be a helpful outlet for me as well as I good way to record my thoughts and feelings in an effort to become a better and stronger me. This month of March has been filled with excitement and I know there is more to come. I have no regrets and I'm extremely pleased with my life at this point. I feel like I'm doing what I need to do to make my dreams become reality and I'm starting to realize what is important. I'm a lot smarter than I used to be and more motivated. My 21st birthday just passed on March 20th! It was so fun. I spent time with those who are most dear to me that lived nearby including friends, family, and my boyfriend. I went out to dinner, clubbing, and attended my little brother's semi-state basketball game. It was a worthwhile weekend. I've been working out because I'm trying to get a six pack or at least get my tummy back to where it used to be. I've been going to XSport with my friend Jill as a guest, but as soon as I'm employed again I will get my own membership. I auditioned for the 3rd season of ANTM..the first time they were looking for girls who are 5'7 and under. I felt great going in! I sized up the competition and still felt very confident. I made it the the second round and then I was cut. I never cry because I know that I will establish my place in the modeling industry when my time comes. I love to model and I'm starting to think that I have a passion for it but I need to keep leraning more about myself in order to finalize the discovery of this so called "passion." That's what I'm working on right now. I can say that I was hurt because each time I audtion, I think it will be my big break and then I'm crushed when I get sent home with my number still attached to my shirt! Better luck next time, huh? No because it's not about luck, it's about God's will and ANTM must not be what he has intended for me right now. I trust him so I'm not mad. I have a job interview at Bebe tomorrow! It's a group interview so I really hope I can stand out in the crowd. I asked my mom how one goes about standing out in that kind of situation and she gave me some good advice so I'm anticipating this interview and praying that I get the job! Today has been a pretty productive day. I'm planning on taking some modeling job offers and going to a few open calls at agencies. I have time so I might as well use it wisely! I also inquired about some internships that I want to apply for so I'll be working on those this week. My boyfriend has been amazing! He's been hanging out a lot with my family and I, giving my brother college advice and spending loads of time with me. I really take as a sign of his maturity and relaization of what and who is important. I'm so proud of him! He really helps me out and is always there for me when I need him and even when I don't. He's my backbone and I'm glad that God put him in my life...I know this is cliche but I truly can't see my life without him. He is my best friend and I've realized it more and more as I watch episodes of The Game, one of my new favorite shows! It is a perfect representation of the life of a football player and his girlfriend/wife. And that's me and PK. The show teaches me things in a way eve though that sounds weird. Well I'm going to get back to watching old episodes so I can catch up on the show...Tootles!